stumbling along

I am feeling the emotions of the change in our lives, and I do not know how this change will affect us. But we are happy to be and had been available to be open to experiences like these. For me today it is not about canceling my obligations or not doing my choirs. It is about what I feel in my heart.

I remember one morning when I heard Elk rutting. The screams were shrilling and loud sharp piercing sounds. The males could lock horns for over a day. Of course the power struggles humans have can easily exceed that. When power issues are raised, it is possible the hidden truth is there but no one can see it. When one challenges another and wins, is there really power to capture for is it really there?? I wonder (ponder, ponder??)

Lets use the imagination… We are walking in the forest and we come upon a beautiful mansion and you can see it is full of fine furniture and many precious objects. A note on the door says” Do not think of stealing and do not envy the one who seems to have it. All you need is a personnel key, then open this door and all is yours.”

Well, where is the key? To find the key, is to let your intuition lead you. If this is hard to do then visualize what you are holding onto now and see it as in future years from now. This may seem scary, but like a snake and his skin, after a loss comes something more fresh and new..

The advice of an old one ” Listen to the sounds around you, if you don’t like the sounds change the station; meaning you have the responsibility to live as a good person. As a person who knows the right way and goes that way, if you are going the wrong way just turn around and step by step you will be going the right way.”

PSS: R.I.P. Michael Jackson ,thank you for sharing the music in you.
June 25, 2009. Thank You

I like it when my imagination runs wild, I feel free, safe and in control of my life.

With some time off work I can take some time to stop and smell the rose, so to speak. The scenery around me is amazing and as I gaze at the beauty I feel the need to share.

I feel so blessed because of the closeness I have with my family, How good I have got it.

Even through difficult times I am able to pull through. I just have to pace myself, step slow and gentle. Trying not to stumble.

When I am in the company of the strong willed, I need not to rush. Mistakes are made then.

I should not take it to another level but try to use humor. Think of the old days, the court jester often had more power than the king. He use humor to win friends and influence people.

Oh Michael, I admired you.

Keens’ are my friends.

Generally when I write a post it is give a message with in a message.

Today I write a post of a straight out thoughts and feeling. To day is the last day of having Gerhardt Junior living in my home. He has been here for the last 10 months. He has brightened our home and we have had much laughter. He loves photography, filming, hockey, skiing, hiking, slack lining. anything to do with the outdoors.

He was a pleasure everyday he was here. I know he is a young and powerful man and he will be a great man. He will do great things.

I consider myself blessed. I will miss him very, very, very much.

We will eat together tonight. We will have hamburgers, by Gerhardt Junior’s request.

God is with you Junior.

Today, I feel is going to be difficult, because I feel some family members have such high standards. Sometimes in situations like this people expect the impossible. I feel like walking away and let them handle it. Getting angry will not solve the problem it will be make it worse, I know this from experience. So I will bite my tongue or grit my teeth as they say. I will work even harder.
I am the leader of this family so I will just lead.
I must focus and I will not hesitate to show my family that I am loyal to them. It will be good for me to show my support to the ones that are the dearest. I need to be careful, I do not want them to think I am taking over their life.

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