stumbling along

Dog is God spelled backwards.

I am now at the stage, about the dog issue. Where I have had a couple of encounters; where the dog showed me it wasn’t afraid of me. This helps because I can gain faith that not all are bad and even if they smell my fear they don’t respond to it as they did right after the attack.

Then there are the times, like I went to go to the grocery store. I parked, got out, headed for the door, then I noticed a dog waiting by the doors. It was not chained, it was sitting there loose. I stopped and decided I did not want to go near him so I went back to my car and drove home.

On Friday I thought I saw 2 dogs in the hallway of the rehab place. I told my case worker and she looked at me funny. So I was seeing things. But the thing is this morning in the gym came in a dog from behind and did feel him approach me and I had an adrenaline rush. The worker there says to me that it was not planned, how that a dog happened into the room. Was by chance, I think not. Nothing is by chance. Correct??

As I walked today I went by a store of books and this one caught my eye. I think these pages came to me for a reason, just as I said, not by chance. I need to make light of my dog attacks, and know not all dogs or humans are mean like the ones I have met.

I don’t like it, but I have scares from my attacks and I am afraid of getting more.

One of the reasons I have a Gratitude Rock.

I have all these rocks I want to give away. I need to give to you. So send to; beannie151@gmail.com and tell me your address. Then I will mail to you, your rock.