stumbling along

Sometimes I feel that my friends, co-workers or family have been extra hard on me and I have had enough.

Yes, I care what others think. But it is just that people who throw a judgment in your face, are people who have that judgment. I do not own it , it is all theirs.

Now, I am not saying,

” don’t to listen to the feedback”

. because you need to. But, if it does not sit good or match the judgment or thought, then throw it away. I am not gaining anything from it, now.

My personal power feels strong today. I have an urge to start painting again. I want to express my spirit. I feel more connected to the world and I desire to put it on canvas. So what is stopping me??

First, is my priorities of where my money goes, because purchasing canvases can be pricey.

Second, is taking the time to do it, what little spare time I have I spend it at my computer. Other wise I am at work, at home cooking, or attending hockey game in support of my youngest son.

Mostly, I am at work and have even missed some of my sons games because of work. It all started with our restructure in May. I have been working overtime daily. I have been banking my overtime and have requested time off in lieu and denied 3 times.

I need to take time and paint.