stumbling along

I need to become invisible, when it is all said and done, so my movements in the outside world can go undetected. Like when the lights go out, or the sun goes down even the little glow of a light can attract unwanted attention.
When darkness or unwanted fears are at it’s high point I think it is best i hide. I mean my thoughts and efforts should; be silent keep within , protected out of harms ways.
Everyday i will face dangerous uncertainties because they do exist. I am really try hard not to become depressed or anxious. i tell myself ” this will pass” Just keep going, keep to your self and outwardly remain cooperative and flexible. Don’t look to far ahead or it will eat me up.

Still stay cautious and control myself, i don’t need forces of opposition now. So if i was invisible i could step around those sleeping dogs.
Apple and i are on the beach again

Sad to think the summer is coming to an end. A week or 2 and back to school.

Adsenxe, click and clkick
I don’t get it
Why doesn’t any one click
Please why?

We took Grandma to the Golf course to enjoy great food.
Check out the Balfour Golf Course

This blogging is not a easy job. First, you have to decide if you feel like writing today. Second, you have to compile sentences and hope you are getting your point across. Make sure all your I’s are dotted and all your T’s crossed. Then you check for spelling and add your photos, embed your video.Then there is link to this, link to that, research the subject for more content. Oh, you need a coma here, an extra space, get that out of there.

Then the sorry part, I hit publish. Oh no, I missed some errors (here I was thinking, don’t worry nobody has read it yet.) WRONG.

So I would go back and edit, then edit, then edit some more. I didn’t know that the first hit to the publish button is what is fed. What I mean is, I forgot that my coach told me this, and I didn’t realize how important a step this is.

So again sorry. I will try to do better. Save and continue; save and continue, make sure, make sure, okay look one last time. Now publish.

I have been so busy with blogging. I have stay up late setting and rearranging my site. I have a Google and a Amazon account now. I want to make this into my job, and make a living at this. I have walked enough miles and need to slow down. Since I have been off work, I have become more in tune with my body. It is screaming SLOW DOWN.

This last attack has set me on my ass. (Yes pun intended) I still intend on living as long as my Grandmother did. With this in mind I need a creative outlet and money coming in.

Teege is going to need more than just high school. The cost of an education is horrendous, and I want to help him every way I can. The acreage will always need money put into it, costs keep going up and up.

So help me to sustain an income and I will be here for you to read.

Thank You

Last Friday, Teege got his report card. For those who don’t know Teege, he is 13 and Grade 8. He enjoys sports, sort of considered a jock. Anyways, Teege didn’t let us know he got his report card until Monday eve. The report was not his best and I think he knew it and that is why he chose to forgot to tell us.

We start the kitchen table family meeting,

“Teege what is going on here, you are not getting the marks you should get?” You English 8 is a C-, you should be getting way better than that.”

He says ”

That teacher hates me, that teacher said to me, he wishes for me to fail”.” I don’t know why he hates me but he does.”

Da daughter says

” Well if that were true, your mark in Social and Science would be low to.” “There is something else going on, like, are you not completing your assignments? What part of English are you having problems with, because I will help you, I use to get great marks?”

Teege shakes his head and replied

” I think, I am doing good in that subject”

“But Teege, if that were true your marks would show it. Teachers have their careers because they want to help children to learn, and I think maybe he expects more from you and you maybe not focus in his class and fooling around. He is trying to put a scare in you, so you would put out more of an effort.”

was said.

” You know Teege, all threw your life (& this is just a start) you will have people in your life that you don’t like and you have to learn to use that to you advantage. You need to go to this teacher and ask him, what you can do to improve your marks. You need to start studying.”

Da daughter says.

(I was going to type ‘doing extra’; but that would be saying he has been studying).

“Well, I want to change classes, I am going to ask to be put in a different class, so he isn’t my teacher.”

Teege says.

”

No you should not, you have one term left, you need to put more of an effort into reading and writing, you need to use your computer for learning and not just games.” “We will help you, but you need to do it .”

I said.

Teege said,

“Well look at mum she is staying home and not going to work, why can’t I…?”

“Hey, that is way different, mum has been working for 22 years and she is physically injured; that is way different than your situation with your marks.”

says dad cutting Teege off. ‘

Listen son, we know you are capable of getting better marks, we know - you are way smarter than these marks show, and you can and need to step up to the plate.”" You are only really hurting yourself if you are fooling around and not focusing while at school. So come on, for your own good.”

So we talked him into writing, just write like 250 words to start. Start keeping a journal (well you know where we are going with this). So we set him up with wordpress and he now has a blog. Will he write faithfully ??? Time will tell.

Da daughter has been web designing for years, she has passed with honors a multimedia course, has done work on videos, photos, web sites, Etc.
Here is a link to her business site (if you wish help with webbing); http://design.reddirtroad.ca/
She is a blogger to, here is a link to her blog: http://blog.reddirtroad.ca/
(copy and Paste.)

I will keep you inform if Teege keeps his site going, then I will let you know his address.

Life is full of opportunity’s, step back and you will see the doors.

China has nearly 20 million Internet bloggers
Dec. 7, 2006. - China had 19.87 million Internet bloggers at the beginning of November — a 24 percent increase over the past 12 months. While more than 15 percent update their blogs at least once a week, only 4.6 percent do it daily, Baidu found. Blogs devoted to medicine and education are particularly popular, the Xinhua news agency said Wednesday, quoting a study by search engine Baidu.
he report came some six weeks after state press reported that China intends to require its millions of Internet bloggers to emerge from the shadows and register under their real names in a move that is raising privacy concerns.
Under the system, bloggers would be allowed to continue using their online pseudonyms, but must register with authorities under their real names, Xinhua said.
Xinhua quoted the head of the Internet Society of China, Huang Chengqing, as saying that some bloggers used their anonymity to disseminate “irresponsible and untrue” information, and called them a “bad influence”.
Huang said there needed to be a balance between freedom and responsible Web use.
Huang gave no firm timetable for implementing the system, saying authorities would listen to feedback from online users before deciding its final shape.
by (China Daily)
Bloggers must give real names
Updated: 2006-11-30 09:17
Officials with the Internet Society of China (ISC) have confirmed that China is exploring adopting a real name system in parts of the Internet, Shanghai-based Oriental Morning Post reported yesterday.
Hu Qiheng, chairman of the board of directors of the ISC, was reported to have said on Tuesday at Info China 2006 in Beijing that China is making attempts to strike a balance between individual privacy and public interests.

“The past understanding of privacy is too absolute. Not only China, but also the whole world, should realize the necessity of balancing individual privacy and public and national interests,”

he said.
A new system is likely to be adopted, requiring Chinese netizens to submit information like real names and ID card numbers when they register a blog or a BBS (Bulletin Board Service) account.
Netizens will be able to continue choosing their own online name, and as long as they do not violate laws their personal information will remain private and safe.
The first area for real name application will be blogs, a popular form of internet-based diary.
Blogs have been used by some people to infringe upon other people’s privacy and rights.
For example an infamous TV host had thousands of netizens visit her blog just because she wrote an article about a well-known TV anchor’s marriage history, which included some allegedly false information.
As a blogger’s real name is unknown, it is very difficult to safeguard privacy and rights.
The society, affiliated to the Ministry of Information Industry, was entrusted by the ministry to form a blog research panel to provide solutions for the development of China’s blog industry.
he real name system is said to be able to protect law-abiding netizens’ privacy.
Yang Junzuo, secretary-general of ISC’s self-discipline working commission, was quoted by Beijing-based China Times a month ago saying that the real name system is the solution.
“Free speech on the Internet does not include talking nonsense and not taking responsibility. Bad symptoms will be curbed,” he was quoted as saying.
However, not many netizens support the system.
An online poll at sohu.com yesterday showed that only one quarter of surveyed netizens agreed that the system would crack down on online crimes while not interfering with internet use.
More than 70 per cent of people were against it, believing it was “absurd” to enforce a real name system just because of a minority of people who committed online crimes.
Xinhua News Agency reported that Hu stressed at the meeting that the society would adopt multiple ways to improve the Internet environment.
Hu was quoted as saying that the direct purpose of improving the Internet environment is to enable the young generation to grow up in an Internet-friendly environment like youth in developed countries.
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