stumbling along

When a situation calls for confrontation because of misunderstandings or outright deceit. When I feel frustrated, that is the time to be assertive. Don’t be afraid to shake things up. Correct what was wrong and move on.

We as parents need that essential trait to show true leadership. Some parents have the task of disciplining and they need to be honest with themselves and others.

“Honesty is the hallmark of the strong and self confident.”

(and no I’m not plugging for Hallmark) The measure of a persons success is his art of honesty, like a swordsman mastering fencing. When mind games, delusions and lies get in the way. A honest action or a corrective play will protect values and bring good fortune. My action must be strong but not hasty or severe. Be sure to consider all circumstance. You must forgive. But don’t forget to give a person a chance to make up for his mistakes. If some punishment is necessary, make sure that it fits the crime. When there was no boundaries and now there is, the situation is restored to proper effectiveness.
In serious issues where justice is at stake keep careful records and don’t hesitate to tell the truth.

I have great satisfaction in my life. I have lived though unforgettable moments. My finances are rather stable and my health is good. With the Christmas season upon us I must try not to spend beyond my means. My psychic senses are fired and I am understanding things and seeing situations in that light. I can see the thorns and know how to correctly grasp that stem.

Today I am going to read a book, watch a movie, be creative and work my imagination. I will meditate and escape from my usual routine. I may not do them in that order. hehe…

I really want my visions to become true, it is hard though when you have those little doubts floating around my head. I think that i have to work hard to reach that goal. Yet I can’t tell the whole story. I think i need to keep telling myself that I should listen to my intuition.

When I endure the cold as I have lately,(because it has been cold) and I survive I feel a great need to learn. To learn how to guard against insecurities. The defeating word that travel though my brain. I need to conquer this so I can succeed. But not just succeed but to be successful. When I am walking in this bitter cold air for the hour upon hours I do it. I learn to maintain an inner strength, I stay focused on the end of the walk. My image of strength is of God and I focus on Him and talk to him.

I have at my job changes that are coming in I know I need to adapt in order to stay. I find now that I am older I don’t like change very much. I know that I want to keep moving forward so I will develop that sense of purpose. My dear Grandmother always told me

“Stay moving, keep learning and pray.”

(to keep in touch with my innermost)

I have had encounters with angels and didn’t know it. Now I know when an angel is around (which is a lot more than you think) I understand the messages now. I am being guided now because I let them guide me. My friends new and old are like gold coins in the bank. Now I have to tell my self to calm down and not do foolish things that I’ll regret.

A highly spiritual attitude is when I allow others to be themselves and don’t demand this or that. Then I can have the freedom to be me and I will be free of fear. I will accomplish with hard work.

Well I have had some hard days at work. The work load it seems has increased X2. I am surviving and banking the OT. We haven’t taken a trip ever and would really like to go to Mexico. That is what I will donate my over time to.

As you see I have a evening post and I am giving myself one hour to do this . Good goal to work towards and the Mentalist will be on so I don’t want to miss it.

I started my day with a list of things to do. As the day went on I found it hard to accomplish a completion. It started to get dark, cold and still raining. My energy levels depleting quickly, but (you knew there was a but) as allows I completed. Last year I wore a head lamp but it felt so unsafe you need day light for mt work. I am curious what Work Safe would say about an injury in the dark. Maybe I should look up my case worker and ask her. I just figured out I should do this.

I found to day amongst all the work load time to think of a project I would like to do. The woman conference has inspired me to take on a project to honor all my sisters.( I will post of the gathering soon) Today felt like a spiritual realization that with my wisdom and my hope that I will be able to complete it. It will be amazing. I will benefit all woman. I am make a plan, and choosing my allies. So here I am teasing you because i am telling you what the project is. I am feeling more committed to it as time passes. To pull this off I will have to have volunteers and money. well definitely donate money to help children of this world.
Short but hour is up.. Thanks for listening.

I feel once I sort out what is real and what are fantasies, and what are my thoughts and what are others’ thoughts that surround you, then and only then, will I find it easier to respond and or keep stuff to your self. This can and has been difficult for me.

At the woman’s gathering they said to practice it in front of a mirror, so I think practice is in order. I did do that and I think it did help but I need to keep my feelings or emotions out of it. I said this to one of the girls there and she said

“You will be able to and thank you for the opportunity of being part of your healing.”

I had not really thought of it that way, but she was right they all were part of my healing even tho I did not see them there when I was up there speaking it was all a blur. I know it has change my life and what I think are my responsibilities. I say it that way because I know now that others may think my responsibilities are something else. Sometimes I think hurry up and get there because you are running out of time. That is when I need to stop and think ‘Why rush?’ If you want it and you want it to last then you can’t go fast.

Here is my thinking now, I live in this huge rain forest (I say huge because the trees stand about three times as tall as the trees on the farm where I grew up.) I transferred here to this forest and started my new route the day before 911. Now these trees took years to grow maybe even centuries. The development of the branches and the bark it is a slow and steady growth cycle to create such beauty. That unexpected event, the traveling by plane, the socializing, all of it played a part in my changing, my healing. Someone once said to me

“Good things can sprout quickly, the truly amazing takes longer.”

This rule, (let me call it, gradual development) is a rule to even apply to relationships. Relationships for love, marriage,for team sports or even business relationships. Progress must be steady and slow to allow for bonding, yet steady in the right direction. I heard this from my Father at times.

“You can’t expect to have everything at once.”

I often did not want to hear this, ‘give it time’ don’t rush and manipulate, let it grow naturally. Some of you have heard these saying to. Well I think I can listen now, it is a lesson that I want to stick with me now. And you know what “It feels good.” ” Here is where I end this post “I will succeed.”

I really hope I am touching other people with my blog. Healing unspoken hurts and unseen wounds. I have open my heart and lent my compassionate nature to you. Please don’t kill me for it. I hope you can look at me for dependability and understand, this helps my healing progress to.

I see myself as offering something unique and guided by forces within. What ever stands in the way is only temperately there. Which is really not a bad thing. Difficulties, obstacles or even setbacks can eventually become assets. For example if that oyster on the bottom of the ocean floor did not have little bites of sand around him, he would not make such beautiful pearls. If it is an obstacle that is deemed huge, then the best thing is to go around it rather than trying to move it. What ever the case maybe don’t pay it no mind. The most difficult problems have a positive side because it often make you turn inward and gain an understanding of your character and personal growth. An amazing man from German who loves to fly planes once told me

“Without air resistance, no plane would ever fly.”

And if you are hiking in the forest and you come upon a huge boulder

“go around, if you try to move it, you will hurt your shoulder.”

I love my children and am concern for their future. I need to be firm and we need to talk more. I mean expressing our feelings for each other. Lots of communication between us.

I will end this post on that note.

‘Communicate with your children today, okay.’